Well. I just can't get to sleep tonight. I think i'm reflecting on myself tonight. I hate it!!! I used to quarrel with my parents and sister whenever they reprimanded me. I hate to be controlled by people, even my parents. I guess i regretted already.

I got this sudden urge to go back to my secondary school and turn back everything. I would study real hard and get many distinction for my exams and hopefully get into a university like my sister...

The kind of life that i'm living right now is damn disgusting. It's bored, lifeless and useless. I felt that i'm a living corpse right now. Sigh...

What did i do to make my life turned out this way? It's far from what i dream to be when i was still a kid. I'm wondering right now... Am i dreaming all the way from 14 year old till now? And till now then i wakes up? If that's the case, i guess i'm fucking useless. A realistic moron. Zzz

I suddenly feel like going to school tomorrow and study. But which school to go? No more... Fuck it. If i'd study properly in poly, i would graduate in 3 more months. What the hell am i thinking about? Is schooling that bad?

I'm really fucking angry with myself right now. This kind of anger cannot be expressed. I just fucking hate myself. Nobody ruined me and yet i'm the idiot that ruined myself, my future and my parents hope!

Right now, i'm really lost. Fuck. Forget it.

Zzzz.... Look at the fucking time now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone is sleeping soundly now except for me. Knn. Don't know why the fuck that i just can't get to sleep. Very tired initially but still can't sleep. =.=

I'm really bored right now. And i've got to wake up tomorrow early. OMG!!! Can't imagine the sunlight shining on my face. Hais... Can somebody save me???? LOL! I also don't understand why i can be blogging right now~ Maybe i'm a little bit depressed.

Nbcb... Lazy to blog liao. My mood just swing here and there as and when it likes. Having headache right now. Fucking painful... Hope now got pills let me take and straight away sleep till next year! =.=

Ok. Shall go and read newspaper liao. Bye~